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life still goes on..

2008-10-02T22:06:00.001+08:00

it is funny thinking about the sudden feel of blogging. i was washing the dishes, as different thoughts and feelings overwhelmed me. this was partly due to 'the leap years' that i just watch yesterday, and hearing the flavour of life. =X

one quote from 'the leap years' had a great impression/impact on me. that it could not be erased/eradicated. it goes like this:

"there are only three words that sum up everything in life: it goes on"

to me this words would give a person's strength or even courage. it is capable of helping those people who are about to fall into total darkness. they would realise that no matter if it is in happiness or sadness, it still goes on. so we must always move forward. it is alright to stop and look back, so as to not forget the past experience/ lesson, but never forget to go onwards. imagine you keep repeating the same mistake over and over again, isnt it like spending your life with the same and never ending route? might as well make life interesting. live life the fullest. try different approaches, so that when one is on the death bed, one had managed to try everything out on this earth and not have any regret. however, if one love someone, one should love to the fullest, so that doing things together would be the best, and not jump about recklessly and hurt people who are the closes to you.

another point that 'the leap years' mention, make much sense to me. everyone in this world hates to be alone. even though some say that they rather be off alone and not communicate with the world, they do not actually mean what they say. to me (some might feel differently), if someone says that they want to be alone, it will mean that they DO NOT WANT any family members, friends or relatives SINCE YOUNG, they do not want to have any memories that consist of something. do not watch any shows or play any games. do not want any single connection/communication with anything or anyone. the main point is, who wants to be in a dark room and forever not coming out. thus, in actual fact everyone do not want to be alone, even memories are etched images that one can have comfort in. so usually people try to find comfort in life partners, friends or family.

even though i mention much stuffs, but i realise that im not a determine person, as sometimes i do contradict myself too. so lets hope that god lead me to the right path=)

it is about to go and study, so i guess must wait till next time=)

p.s. life is filled with contradiction it is the same as men are not perfect=x

ipresent and f future

2008-09-20T15:32:00.000+08:00

hmm.. it seems a long time ago since i blog. hahas. due to different reasons. my computer keyboard seemed to be broken and my father's laptop sent for repairing.(now im using my father's lappy) so now im back to writing a post=)

anyway regarding about someone it does not really bother me much now, cause i have to concentrate on my studies. wait after o's then i shall think about it. by then it might not matter anymore already. hahas. but after joel read my blog, the next day (i think) he went right in front of me, did a heart shape formation with his hands and went " LOCK ON", and said " OPEN HEART". LOLS.____. for those who do not know what is going on, it is a favourite phrase in an anime (shugo chara!). i do not know whether to be happy or irritated, for him to keep repeating the same phrase over and over again. however, im glad that he was trying to cheer me up a little bit? ( i guess so) hahas. so yup! thats it.

once again we have made silly jokes about us. however this time its not the challenge family. this time round, its the 'PRESENT' and 'FUTURE' family. hahas. and we used i and f to represent us. it was produced by xin, who was talking about Ipod. the next moment she went Ishort and i created the f series, because i did not want to be i short. LOL. 'I' represent the present us and 'F' represent the future us(opposite of I) so here it goes:

xin - I chio, F ugly/ I clumsy, F grace(if you combine it becomes a bad word 'fugly' LOLs)
yul - I dumb, F smart
kaka - I fat, F slim
siew siew - I slow, F lag (special case for her. lol.. )
dia - I short, F tall.

there were many many others, it is just that i could not go about remembering all of it =X. beside this joke. we made a whole bunch of toh joke. but i guess i would not be putting it up here. since, it is quite rude and mean, as some have the same surname too. so i guess, its too bad? hahas.

not too long ago, my sister showed me her taggyboard, and there was this person name "hate". and there he goes saying bad things about her. after reading what he typed i felt angry and stared at it in disbelief. if you really hate her shouldnt u go tell her straight? isnt it seriously disgusting/creepy/wierd/inhuman that u are close to her and yet say this kind of things. it is like a 2 face hypocrite. u should take off the false facade and tell her. you would feel better and im sure my sis would understand and might try to change the part where you dislike. all humans are not perfect even so you, thus we need to evolve and try to become better. however if you make this kind of childish moves, who knows what you want. and in the end you just make a fool out of yourself and even so made people around her to hate you. isnt tat worse? if only u read this.

okay hahas after relieving my concerns and spreading the jokes, i guess i would have to go. in any case it will take a LONG time before i can update again. so.. you all dont have to come and check for any updates ya? yupps. so bye^^ =)

p.s. who is not afraid that people behind them is backstabbing them. i guess everybody does

the truth hurts.!

2008-08-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

to be true, i have alot of things to say about it. but now, it seems that both my heart and my soul is empty? i knew the truth a long time ago. in fact i think it was 3 months ago? however, it came crashing down on me recently again. the more i want to know, the more i fall deeper. i just want to know who had been in your mind, however now i find myself getting hurt even more (curiosity kills the cat)i think i know who is it now. someone total opposite of me. no wonder he was not even considering. it was because im just an inverted mirror when compared to the other girl's character. if my guess was right and he managed to grab her. we would have gotten himself a great person. i supposed that my assumption had be proven right, so i guessed nothing can be done. why am i so DEPRESSED!!!... nooo... stop it. LOLS.(dramatic) i fervently pray to god that he would help me in giving him up and help him(but i still want to be his friend,because his a great one)

anyway, today kun hua(KH) shocked the hell out of many people in class. jane and him were debating on the time of the humanities remedial. either 4.30 or 5. jane was persistant while he was aggitated. the conversation went on like this.

jane:"i am sure it is 4.30. why you want to fight arhx?"

KH reply:"fight la, fight, come on fight, you think you girl i scared you ahx. fight la. BRING IT ON! SUCKER!"

people in the front rows were flabbergasted/stood transifxed/ jaw dropped/stunned (many people reaction) and jane just froze did not know how to rebut or what to do, as he storm off?

what could we all say? it was just wierd. plain wierd/strange/eerie.. hahas.

besides this, after school we had humanities remedial. and ming xuan made a toxic joke out of joel. joel pointed at the wrong country on the map and said to ms poh that it was parallex error. to be sacarstic, ming xuan said that joel's finger were to fat. thus, one thought that he was pointing to one thing, while he was meaning the other. ms poh also cracked up another joke. saying that next time joel did not need to say talk to the hand, his index finger is enough. so in the future, his phrase would be talk to the finger!

so now~ its the teachers day gift that i made by using clay and acrylic paint. im proud to say that i have a talent.=x just joking i just hope that they would like it ^^ and lets pray hard it does not break.

ps. i love you so much that all that was left in me was an empty shell <3

adam khooo booster session!!

2008-08-26T21:49:00.000+08:00

similar to the previous posts, i will be writing about yesterday, as i was DEAD/super tired last night. i could hardly even pry open my eyes. okay now, back to the point. we had our AK booster session. i follow through the course. its not Andrew Kang's physic lesson, but Adam Khoo session.

at the beginning, he start off with asking us how our grade was, and continued in teaching us how to do well in English. to sum it off, it was just understanding, picking and knowing how to paraphrase, which i totally suck at(due to the poor vocabulary i own). besides substituting word for word, we can change the active voice or passive voice. vice versa~ or even try restructuring the sentence. then we side-track in many direction. next he talk about study habits, like out sleeping time,planning and diet, etc. it was quite useful, even though some were what we knew already. we then learn the 3As and the SCAR.

Awareness
Allowance
Action

after checking the paper, we need to check the mistake we made were due to what problem and categorized it into SCAR!
Study(open your testbook, seat there and STARE!)
Careless(dont rush, check, check and CHECK!)
Application(use your common sense how to apply to life)
Remember(eat more antioxidant stuff^^)

after doing that, we would be aware of what went wrong, and we must allow self to improve further. next we just have to do it, which requires our own effort. okay. besides all the study notes... we had FUN(horny) jokes.

the pitiful people who sat in the hall, who sweat like mad pigs, had shown their peeping and popping. i remind you, he repeated peeping and popping ___ could be seen through the shirt. obviously only the guy's one. we switched gary on. next all came out from his mouth were "hot" stuff? i cant stop laughing at the story of the lady who wore mini skirt, yet no matter how hard he and his gang tried to look, they could not see the end of it. it was like a black hole. (she was even opening her legs wide) [no offense, it was just a joke] there was another amazing experience that he share. a time when he sneaked away from a course that he supposed to attend and went to the THEME PARK!. all the rides were breath taking and that he did not dare to take most of the ride, as there would be adrenaline rushing through his body. relying on the brochure, he found a fast and fascinating ride. the jurassic park roller coaster!

in the ride they went past many figures of dinosaur, some made sound and they briefly explained about them. (to gary, WTH just move on and forget about it). soon, the route became steeper. and he could hear the chains pulling them up to the tip(he was waiting for the worse by preparing to scream). at the tip, he closed his eyes awaiting strong wind pressure on his face, but there was none. it just came to normal gradient. (.___. so much for preparing, lucky he did not scream). then the journey continue to the point of reach a T-REX. and they entered in his mouth. in total darkness he was just awaiting for the exit. SUDDENLY, the gradient dropped! the whole seat plunged into total darkness it was so shocking that he did not even have the time to open his mouth. hahas, i cant imagine it. i think i will faint. hahas.

lastly he gave advise to us. saying that we should have fruits while doing our work, so there would not be sugar rush, and would last longer. drink more water for helping increase our memory space?(i think) and about the different hormone that the body gives out like Dopamine, etc.. which would give out different responses such as YAHOO!, AHH...., Uh OH.. YIKES! hahas. it was an easy task to remember this. hahs. we should also eat more omega fat food(from fish), do the superbrain yoga. (tongue touch the top of mouth, hands rubbing on earlobes, breath in through nose, breath out through mouth and bend up and down) we should also do some exercise. and eat anti-oxidant food(blueberries, strawberries, promegranate). eat breakfast in the morning containing protein, such as egg, hot dog, ham. instead of eating carbohydrates, as it might have sugar rush and make one lethargic. lastly eat fruits in between the exams ^^.

woah there was so much to remember, i think i had missed out some. nevermind about that. after typing so much about AK session, i think i will continue the next entry about today. so thats it folks=)

ps. thanks alot AK it helped in some way on me in my life=)

the day out for gifts...

2008-08-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

this is a post about, after posting something that makes me feel dejected. i am going to post something that is more light hearted=)

today is wei jie's birthday! sorry for not going to just asia(a restaurant where there is free flow of ice cream at doby ghaut) cause i am not close with your group of friends and did not want to spoil the mood so i did not attend the party=) hence, once again... HAPPY BIRTHDAY. today is also the science symposium that our school has held. i did not go, however kaka when to help. poor her, after talking to countless of people, her voice turned sore. by the time i met her at mac (3.15pm) She had a super sexy low voice. over there, we met yul too. then we proceed to IKEA. xin met us there though.

upon reaching, we go straight to the things section, skipping the showcase. scanning through with our eyes. we saw nothing that were up to our standard, thus left the area without buying any furniture, while kaka buys something that she need. wow... by the time we left ikea, i was raining CATS and DOGS (cliche). lucky we had the holy umbrella, protecting us from the pouring rain that would make us wet. next we went to giant. the SUPER MEGA big supermarket. going there, we wanted to buy some stuffs for our house. but we realise it was so expensive that we decide to go to fairprice instead. hence we go to take the free shuttle bus!=)

in less than 5 minutes the bus arrive (LUCKY!=)) upon going up the bus, xin brandished her white small wallet towards the scanner (the one for ez-link card). di-di-di-di the sound resounded through the bus.(the one that when your card has no money it will sound). by then, my six sense tells me that many pair of eyes were staring at our direction. not believing her card has no money, xin tried again. di-di-di-di. it happened again. this time round the driver pair of eyes looked at her directly. felling for the same trick, i took out my wallet thinking that we need to pay for it. xin that read what was written on the card reader. " log on free...." then yul grabbed her on the arm and dragged her. the bus ride was - FREE!. it is a free shuttle bus .___. LOLS! even i forgot about it due to xin's action. i heard some people on bus giggling about the funny action that xin did. while we laugh at the clumsiness of xin. hahas. while yul's point of view was..(she went up first)

"Eh? we need to pay for the free shuttle bus? we need to use our ez-link card. should i take out my wallet?" then she stared at the bus driver and xin wondering what to do. LOL (that is what i thought). hahas. on the trip to TM, we were saying each other being clumsy, dumb, short, brainless, etc.. and we came out. THE CHALLENGE LIST!!

Erika - common sensibly challenge [brainless]
Yu Ling - smartly challenge [dumb]
Xin - gracefully challenge [clumsy]
Siew Yee - alertly challenge [blurr]
Lydia - vertically challenge [short]

it was so hilarious. by the time we reached fairprice. our inner aunties came out as we picked good quality and cheap food. by then it was time to go home. YAWN after hours of shopping my legs are aching. my arms already aching (helped mr kang carry the bags) then i proceed back home. ^^

ps. dont forget that shuttle bus are meant to be free!!!

the feelings for ghost?

2008-08-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

afraid that i will stop blogging? like the previous blogs? nah.. i think i would treat this as a online diary, since i am too lazy to begin writing one. it might be a good thing as i can improve my English. ^^ okay now back to the topic i want to mention. hahas. it is quite personal. =X

just one day before, i was with YC going to popular to get a silver marker. and guess what? i met a GHOST. not a real ghost, but someone i call as ghost. hahas. since i am not wearing my spectacles, i could only see people at a specific radius. (their shape and expression closely) if it is too far, all i see is a blurry figure or you could say just colours. people might wonder whats my degree to be able to see without my spectacles. in fact it is currently increasing, because as the days pass, the specific radius i could see is shrinking. going back to the topic, ghost apparate into my radius. i was flabbergasted. at that moment, my heart skipped a beat. as he approaches towards us (we were crossing a road), i could feel my face turning hot. unexpectedly, he said HELLO. actually i could not hear anything, i was too concentrated staring at the flawless face, therefore to me he was mouthing the word HELLO. besides this, he added a killer smile after saying hi. (may be only able to kill me? hahas). i did not know what to do, may be it was due to the unexpected occurrence(phenomenon) or may be the invisible cut starts to hurt again. unwittingly, i said a high pitch BYE! i am so stupid. does this word sound like i hate to see him? may be it had a little of i don't want to see you accent(because it hurts) but i was actually very glad and happy that fate allow us to meet(even though we are not meant to be). after the cross fire between him and I, i was telling YC that how i wished we walked another route or it was such a bad time and i hate it. i think i did i even curse the day? hahas. she said she was a jinx for this thing and thus i started to blame her (Sorry YC). but i was not her fault at all. it was just - fate. after much cursing, i realised that the feelings are resurfacing. burdening it was painful memories. it is because the immense feelings i had for him caused the enormous hate towards him, that had me say bad things for him. even though i said it he was mean and stuffs, i knew that it was so as to cover or hide or even prevent me for falling into the pit further. i am sorry. but i am selfish, i am afraid of pain too. but there is one thing i realise, after not seeing him closely for 1.5 months due to examinations and him seating behind, the feelings subsided, but the moment i saw him it came back. thus i have to prevent myself from seeing him so to stop the feelings. however i contradict myself. i want to see him , i want to be talk/laugh with him and obviously i want to be his friend knowing that it will be even more painful. but i guess as a selfish person i need to be punish, thus i need to withstand it all! YUP! because i had pain with losing a friend so i rather not lose a friend due to this reason. dont worry im trying to move on(anticipate change and stay relevant) so if any chance that ghost saw this post, i would be embarrased but i hope he would be less worried or not afraid to be near me. oh ya! thanks for being better/kinder to me. at least this make me know that i had been a part of your journey in life, even though it is i am just a minor role. THANK YOU=) [really thanking with all my heart]

after not seeing him for a long time(anyway i am not a stalker=P), i also notice that he had grown even taller (congratulations) and that his hair had grown longer =X (time for a haircut!) this lines a bit no link. hahas =x cause above is all EMO words ya? i need to type it out, to release all of it. i hope you guys dont mind.=X i also realise my reaction with kaka is totally opposite. hahas. she is filled to the brim with joy, while mine is contaminated with a mixture of feelings. ^^

ps. it is fate that allow us to meet, but it is destine that me and ghost are not meant to be=)

career guidance seminar

2008-08-20T20:28:00.001+08:00

the day before this, everyone was excited thinking of what to wear. obviously i took part in this amazing event too by dressing up in office wear to school. not knowing or you can say the lack of clothes? led me to wear what i wore when i work part time at siew siew's mother workplace. just a normal plain pink T-shirt on the inside and a black button shirt on the outside. i even had a dilemma whether to wear a long pants or a skirt (i picked the skirt cause it look better on short people). we also had to choose/search/find/dig for matching shoes/heels/slippers. it was like a comedy. (imagine clothes piling up on the bed and shoes, slipper thrown everywhere) all of this happened BEFORE the seminar itself (it was just only the beginning). due to the long hours of finding the clothes, the next morning i realised all my energy had been drained.

the moment i reached school i was shocked/appalled/stunned? hahas. many were wearing office wear. to be exact the WHOLE CLASS except alvin. it meant that 37 of us were wearing pretty much CEO/boss/salesman kind of clothes. with joel wearing a black coat(those which are SO HOT), a red tie and a white formal shirt on the inside, he was the BOSS of 4D. there were others that were his subordinate, body guards, chauffeur too. below is the list of people that we thought they represent BASED ON their CLOTHING(i dont want people to come curse me =X).

Joel-boss
Jessica-boss wife
Xian Da-chauffeur
Ming Xuan-bodyguard
Yi liang-right-hand man
Wei zhen-helper of the boss wife

obviously everyone was fabulously dressed (well done guys/gals!). then it was time for the seminar. the beginning was held at the hall. they made the table and chairs arrangement like a wedding dinner (i thought we were going to have food served in like wedding dinner too=x). as the seminar started with people's speech including the Guest of Honour and principal of TJC. we then had a social etiquette session with MR CHRISTIAN CHUA. it was refreshing and FUNNY. instead of being a speaker he could be a comedian. as he was superb in talking his way through. he did/said many interesting things to catch the WHOLE school's attention. some of the examples are as below.

he gave polo sweets to the people who answered his question properly.
and he said:" i gave you polo sweets, because when you CHOKE, you can BREATHE"
the next thing he said was :" great i handed out all the polo sweets, because it is EXPIRED!"

he also showed how/where does guys put their hand when wanting a lady to grab his hands. he even showed if the lady did not hold, one should put his other hand at the hips and pull his pants up, adjusting it.

at the slide shows, he used bruce lee's hairstyle on george bush(no offence). but seriously,the hairstyle does not fit.

after many series of joke, i found my stomach aching and my laughter sounds sore.( laugh too hard). we then continued to different capsules. like going to design, mass comm, MJC and had a break and when to the second session at VJC, arts and social science, IT and engineering. for the last session was a talk about business. im sorry but by then all my energy was absorbed and sucked out of my body. im SORRY. but i dozed off. hahas =) finally it came to an end. (you can hear the angels singing and dancing above the students head.) it trained you for stamina in being attentive. hahas. anyway, thanks to those organizers who did a great job in putting the seminars in air-conditioned rooms too. if not we would have been like sweating pigs. =)

besides this career seminar thingy, another incident made a great impact(BANG) on me. i think it is greater for kaka than me. hahas. we were about to go home when she saw F. she was talking/ walking with him that we(xin, nik, me, YC) decided to let them go together. it took quite sometime when she realised that we were absent and she come running towards us. first she pounced on nik, he shrieked!. next she grabbed YC, luckily for her, she managed to escaped for her. lastly, she finally caught her prey. ME! hahas. i she hold me on my shoulders, refusing to let go. i frantic and ran round like a mad woman, but to no avail. T.T. i surrended and stood at a corner, while the predator(ka) enjoy his meals, by beating the prey(me) at the arms. pitying me, the other preys(nik and YC) came to help me. hahas. i feel loved~ hahas. the next thing, tears came streaming down ka's face. it was tears of joy/happiness/mixed feelings. even though i do not know the feelings of hers, but i know that her love is real. ^^ it made a tickling warm feeling in my heart. the emotion/expression that i had lost. even though ka did things that traumatize us. i felt glad and heave a sigh of relief. as this could be a motivation for her and that she could experience such great meetings with F. i bet now she is still laughing and smiling. great for her. ^^ after all the experience, being tired, i landed on my soft bed with a thud and went to my world. "the land of short"

snapshots
coming soon when kaka send me the photos.^^

ps. after seeing kaka being like this, im actually jealous as she got someone to love =P

2008-08-19T23:13:00.001+08:00

this is my first post since like many donkey years ago? hahas
just to let you know the reason
i was filled with joy and love thanks to everyone
therefore i decided to start writting blogs again
so as to keep all lovable memories
once again...
THANKS FOR THE PARTY!!=)

Before the party
we rushed out of school to TM to meet kaka and change there
the moment we stepped out of the toilet cubicle
as if magic were showering over us
we transformed into princes and princesses
so it was time to go on our journey to the MOF (ministry of food)

the journey was tough though
YC almost forgot how to go there(she was the only one who knew where)
as we manoeuvre ourselves through the mob at bugis
finally we reached the restaurant!
it look so grand and the people's hospitality was great!
they welcome us (in japanese)
and lead us to our seats

During the party
we scan through and pick our food (the menu is under the table!)
i ordered sashimi set
Yc decided to take a dare and try to taste fish moe (she said it was delicious)
while D said: " the fish moe will BURST in your mouth and gives a fishy taste" (sounds wrong)
time flies and finally it was time to eat the desert
their ice cream is like the BEST
savouring over it by 'stealing' others
suddenly a box filled with piggy apparate in (the top written WITH LOVE)
i was appalled as an unknown item came into sight
the top and bottom were pulled apart
as the mysterious circle thing came out (through the help of Yul)
it was my CAKE!
it was not a normal cake.....
wang wang, pockey stick, veg. biscuits, sweets chocolate name it all
guess what it is made out of TEN (10) DONUTs covered in chocolate
it was unique as i was awed by the magnificent figure in front of me
soon after digging it and pulling it apart
we finished the cake (i wanted it to last longer.... T.T)
presents came flooding in too!
there is a transparent pencil case for O's (YC and chib deco)
a water bottle stuffed with candies and lollipops (Yul ,Ka, Xin deco)
a card (D deco with wishes from everyone)
a nice & cute pillow/ soft toy (Ka give it)
it was all low monetary value but HIGH sentimental value
then it was time for the scary and grumpy old BILL
it cost $170.77 (for 10 people)
considered quite cheap already (included of GST and service tax)
everybody panicked and took out their money
was in a mess when NIK came to the rescue
nik :" you all want to use my NETS card first? then we settle bill later"
he was the saviour for 10

After the party
we left the restaurant and settle old grumpy bill
luckily it was easy as everyone just had to pay what they eat without the GST and tax
and then it was time for the photoshot (camwhoring time!)
we did many poses at such a awkward area
but it was so fun that we did not care
next we went to O school to check for D and nik audition results (it is on wed)
then we proceed back home

HA.... so tiring after the whole process somemore we had school beforehand
still it was a wonderful experience
i read the card that they had written (i was moved)
i really really LOVE/TREASURE and will CHERISH all those gifts that were given to me.
THANKS GUYS!!!
i had i wonderful time
i will never for this day
even though its a belated birthday party
it felt as though i was on the 9th August again
THANKS ALOT AGAIN...

oh ya! by the way from now on if there is any picture
i would post it at the end of each blog entry. ^^

Snapshots

some of us started off eating first =Xfinally YC is willing to take pic with someone ^^all three smiles~aka ka jiao me while i eat my food =) look at me gobble down my food. hungy?
shes the main provider of drinks~ another triplets! this is the third triplets!!finally a couple~ AWW share drink wor!this photo is nice! like a family=) must post more of siew siew pics!!

mouth watering desert!! this was damn good!SO BIG!! it is super delicious too.. (ALL MINE=P)

whats inside this cute little box?

this! my donut/ biscuit CAKE!

why is the pokey sticks in the donut? oo... inside the donut there is chocolate too!!eat finish straight away sleep will turn fat!! grumpy old bill!!
conference for $$ (ching ching)

too tired to put comments so have fun looking at the pictures^^

ps. i enjoyed everyone company. really=)